I just had something not so wonderful happen in my life.
I thought that God had answered a prayer. It looked like he had. Things were falling into place that I had prayed so hard for. I was flying so high and just praising Jesus. I couldn't stop smiling. I was so incredibly happy! In my mind and to the people around me I was saying Yay! It's FINALLY happening.
Then...
It wasn't.
It was snatched away with a few words and a phone call. My heart broke. To others it wouldn't have meant that much.
But to me..
It meant freedom.
I was finally going to have my freedom. Finally! After all the hard work I have put into my life, work and school. It was FINALLY paying off! Someone was recognizing everything that I had done. God was rewarding me! I was positive that things were gonna work out right this time.
Except........ they didn't.
I don't understand why or how. I don't understand how it could be given then taken away. I don't understand God's plan in this situation. I've been praying and asking for help. I know that he is answering my prayers. But it still doesn't make sense.
I'm trying not to be bitter. With God. With others. It is hard.
But...
I'm holding on. I'm keeping the faith. I know that God's plan will shine through in this situation. Through this two passages have been playing in my head- they are all that are keeping me sane.
They are:
Proverbs 3:5 & 6
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not unto your understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight.
Romans 8:28
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
Romans 8:30
And those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified.
I am keeping the faith. Even though right now it is hard. Even though I don't understand. Even though I'm hurting.
I am and will trust that God will be bring me through. He has before and I know he will again. He is faithful after all. And I have been faithful to him.
I am keeping the faith.
So remember: When things look dark and are hard- that's when you have to stand and say: "Lord even though it looks bad, I am going to trust in you."
